Surgery

Surgery is cool........but will it be the specialty that i want to lead for life??? I know i am yearning for more hands-on experience but i just feel weak at heart sometimes wondering if i can do so. I know i am casting doubts now. I have never been strong in my stand to join this man-dominant field. Whether i can be a part of that is still "unknown". I reckon that i work with too much stress in the last 2 weeks as i put a big big stone in my heart thinking that nothing but an excellent performance will be enough. Hence, the feeling of suffocation arised when i felt that i am performing below par....every single comment was taken unequivocally as i wasn't at my rational mind to debate if it should be taken in or not! I wasn't even prepared for this attachment......with my Step 1 is still knocking at my doorstep, it feels as if i am trapped in my own maze.