Enjoying life = work?

I never ceased to be amazed with how people could change over a course of time. 4 years ago, i asked my mentor if it is wrong for me to spend all my money enjoying every moment in my life as i believe we should all enjoy life to the fullest for a simple reason; Life is short. At that time, i was simple.

Enjoying life = play hard.

Now as i looked back, the same question still ponder in my mind as i still have the same believe but i wonder what is the right answer right now. Currently, i am in my second block of general surgery rotation, back to a rotation where i hope to pursue as my career (well, in general surgery training, we have to rotate in other surgical subspecialties as well like vascular, thoracic and plastic surgery to get trained into be a complete surgeon; hence, i am not spending all my time rotating in general surgery). I found that i am enjoying my current rotation thoroughly as much as i am hating the stressful part of it. I am liking my chances to operate almost every single work day, given the opportunity to be the primary surgeon in technically more challenging cases. I do come out feeling horrible if i didn't think it was a perfect surgery or if my surgeon consultant has to provide assistance. I do stress out everyday if my patient is in a bad spell during their recovery. But i guess, that is why it is so sweet when the surgery is successful and my patient is finally ready to leave the hospital. It is an amazing feeling.

Going to work = performing surgery = something i enjoy

As my job scope involves taking care of other people's life, i have the responsibility to ensure that their life is well taken care of as life is precious to everybody. So, for me to have understood the meaning of life put me in a difficult situation in creating space for me to enjoy my life as i have to spend time to keep my patient alive for them to enjoy theirs. Hence, as much as i hope to have free time to play as much as i can, i also need to dedicate a lot of my time in work too. In conclusion, i need cannot play too much as i need to work hard.

Dedicated to work = Acknowledging life is precious to others

In conclusion, Enjoying life = play + work

Am i making it clear or sound more complicated?



(-_-)***i think i prefer to be a surgeon than a cook or phtographer now.....