Breath in, Breath out

Everytime when i click into those websites that link to my residency application, the feeling of being suffocated arise by itself. I really hope that at the end of the day i can be a general surgery resident.

Step 1 is here again on Monday, i really don't know what to wish for anymore. Am i govern by faith? I am actually ready to go to Memorial if that's where i meant to go.