Dreams

this morning i woke to the feelings that i dreamt of seeing Oscar.......loosing Osacar has created a scar in me........i really love him very much.....i am not sure if i am able to go through the cycle of getting another pet and finally seeing it laid to rest again.....it's too painful in feelings than i could write it out........Oscar is too smart that i cant help but compare his ability to every dog around me......i can still go on and on endlessly about him.....sigh.....i'll never be able to forget my little baby..

In the morning, ate porridge......wonder if i can go down to 52kg.....wanted to try slim down...have been a 55++kg girl for quite sometime....wonder what it feels to be really slim and thin.......