Where are you?

I realised i really missing Oscar a lot. I can't seem to let him go away from my mind. Thinking back at my conversation with Yuko that night, i wouldn't have thought that i could meet someone who actually had the similar bitter experience.......she never tell me a lot of any sad story about her....the only few times that i can recall now were John, Tas and her grandpa's death....it seems that she'll only let it out if there's someone/ something who's utterly close or important to her or else, she would keep it to herself emotionally. Again, 'thank god' again for answering my prayer....i really know that i found 'the penpal' that i'd wished for from the first day i decided to write!

It's the photo that i pasted on my new DIY photo album.....i recalled exactly the moment i took that pic with Oscar, it is still so unreal that he left me......Aug 5.....today is a year and 4 days since the last time i saw him......my heart still ache so much that whenever i think of him, my tears bud will just loose it's inhibition......how unfair it is that he is not living any longer......i don't know when it will be the day that i can really accept that he no longer alive.....he's still very much in my heart.....i still ponder at the i did not get to see him off............sigh....