Hate to go back

It's really bad having to go back to my old house alone. I went back today again and it's the same stupid feelings. My eyes just went teary again. Next week will probably be the last time i go back there again. My heart just aches a lot about this fact. It's really hard to let go and there's nothing that i can do to change this. It's just feels scary to get close to people again with the phobia of loosing them. I have to force myself to keep on believing in myself to bring myself up again with what i am going through right now.