jeff

Today was jeff's funeral......a huge turn out, suprisingly...not sure if it was because he had touched so many people's life or they came just simply because the hype ....not sure how much they knew him. Do i want to see people who doesnt know me in my funeral???

The past few days...has been a lot of confusion thinking in me....i really think i have hypersleeping disorder....feeling tired pretty quick in me...and i have internet addiction...adding to my personal confusion of my life......still figuring out a lot of things at this moment...

I know that i have wanting to set my routine straight....i have been trying to distance myself from my housemate simply because i need to do more studies....however at time also because i felt the need to get use to the fact that they wont be around me for long....i know i am very dependent...i can be one....or i should say i am one....though from the outside, i seems strong but i will be in a terrible state without my close friends.....loosing oscar has made me more vulnerable.......i havent had a day where i dont doubt myself.....i dont know, i am still very sored with his departure. Am i having MDE?