Monday, October 04, 2004

Future partner ideology

She's again in my thoughts in the past few days...probaly the lack of news from her for the past month. I took the initiative to write to her as my housemate kept on bugging me about my xmas holidays while i kept giving excuse that Yuko has yet make up her mind. Ultimately, i still hope that Yuko will make her way here or else i will not be wayward in calling up the travel agent to get my ticket to LA- Disneyland..... =) Then what a surprise i got from her...she told me she's dating someone tonight....he's a newly divorced black american. The fact that Yuko is telling me the details of this guy and her exclamation about this date: that she's not sure what happened to her in making her to decide to go ahead with it, makes me wonder....is it pure love or out of fun?...however it is...i still hope that she will find spark if it is ever meant to be. The reason i pull up this topic today is because the words: divorced black caught my attention immediately....when i was young, i never think that i will be involved with anyone who's married or was involved in a marriage before.....however, i think i've grown out of that....not that i am saying that i'll be attracted to a married man, i am still against those actions...but going out with a divorcee is definitely not something impossible now...first....eligible good man is not a lot out there, what more, eligible smart good man.....i am not setting any higher goals in searching for my future husband but i think in terms of scioeconomic accomplishment, he should match my current level...coz it's pretty unlikely that i'll be charmed by someone whom i think is shallow in thinking. My cousin told me that no girl would like to have a boyfriend who's not up to their level but if i kept on to be choosy (when i think i am not!), i really got to open my eyes wide. Black.....i am not sure if this is what you call racisim...but since young i am not inclined to inter-racial marriage.....with all these issues in me, i think it's really hard to get into a relationship easily, a perfect reason to why i am still companionless.....

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