Something can be infectious

November and december babies are everywhere. Had been eating out for two birthday celebrations and realised that no matter how much one pay in Newfoundland, the best meal one would get is lamb! My steak was rather mediocre. I was rather disappointed with the surprise "perfect" meal prepared for a friend as it turned out to be not-so-prefect in terms of the overall price for food quality. However, we did have a good time eating! This friend of mine has an infectious personality. I don't think she quite realises that. She is the type that spreads lots of love to everyone she knows. I really got to say that i think i got infected with it too. I am always fortunate!

As per usual, operating is always infectiously fun. The more surgeries i performed, the more i wish to do! It's addictive! I ain't crazy you know! But it's extremely fulfilling after a successful surgery! (^ ^)

Recently, i have also gotten addicted to drinking peppermint tea. The aveda tea has such a special blend of pepermint and licorice. It's quite expensive to buy it from aveda shop. I have started to think that i can mix licorice and peppermint leaves myself! (o.O)



(-_-)***it's 4 more months till i am back in malaysia again!

The charcoal way....

I am truly shocked upon learning the news that one of my favorite contestant in the Taiwan Million Dollar Star Contest Season 3 actually committed suicide. It was said that she killed herself by sitting in a car burning charcoal. The increasing saturation of carbon monoxide in her blood "allowed her to die painlessly". How painless can that be? Physically, yes but mentally...???

There are so much to life. It is no doubt difficult but to resort to giving it up does not justify all the effort we have put in just to survive. I have watched people who begged to keep their life going even though it may only be for a few months or even few hours (just to be able to meet their beloved for the last time). I have also witnessed people who begged to allow their life to be left rotting and wasted. Facing these extremes ever so often certainly left me thinking about my life a lot.

As much as we thought that our life belong to ourselves but it is never that simple. There are so many strings attached that it is not easy to get them untangled. I guess it goes back to what is the purpose of life. What an interesting way of me going back to the most important question in my life. I come to understand that being happy is the main purpose. Compassion and happiness goes together. Learning the full meaning of being cojavascript:void(0)mpassionate is helping me to become a happier person.



(-_-)*** (^ ^)

Enjoying life = work?

I never ceased to be amazed with how people could change over a course of time. 4 years ago, i asked my mentor if it is wrong for me to spend all my money enjoying every moment in my life as i believe we should all enjoy life to the fullest for a simple reason; Life is short. At that time, i was simple.

Enjoying life = play hard.

Now as i looked back, the same question still ponder in my mind as i still have the same believe but i wonder what is the right answer right now. Currently, i am in my second block of general surgery rotation, back to a rotation where i hope to pursue as my career (well, in general surgery training, we have to rotate in other surgical subspecialties as well like vascular, thoracic and plastic surgery to get trained into be a complete surgeon; hence, i am not spending all my time rotating in general surgery). I found that i am enjoying my current rotation thoroughly as much as i am hating the stressful part of it. I am liking my chances to operate almost every single work day, given the opportunity to be the primary surgeon in technically more challenging cases. I do come out feeling horrible if i didn't think it was a perfect surgery or if my surgeon consultant has to provide assistance. I do stress out everyday if my patient is in a bad spell during their recovery. But i guess, that is why it is so sweet when the surgery is successful and my patient is finally ready to leave the hospital. It is an amazing feeling.

Going to work = performing surgery = something i enjoy

As my job scope involves taking care of other people's life, i have the responsibility to ensure that their life is well taken care of as life is precious to everybody. So, for me to have understood the meaning of life put me in a difficult situation in creating space for me to enjoy my life as i have to spend time to keep my patient alive for them to enjoy theirs. Hence, as much as i hope to have free time to play as much as i can, i also need to dedicate a lot of my time in work too. In conclusion, i need cannot play too much as i need to work hard.

Dedicated to work = Acknowledging life is precious to others

In conclusion, Enjoying life = play + work

Am i making it clear or sound more complicated?



(-_-)***i think i prefer to be a surgeon than a cook or phtographer now.....