Photography

It's been a dilemma choosing the right DSLR. For a beginner like me, or i should say for someone who's greedy wanting the best of everything - I want a good size dslr with a good range of features, not forgetting that i also hope for a reasonable priced package; I don't think i'll find such camera to my liking. At this moment, it looks like i will probably spend on a nikon d40x. I also did quite a bit of photography homework recently, i.e reading all its jargon, in preparation to go into the dslr world!

A friend of mine actually lend me his d50 (the predecessor of d40). That allows me to learn more about a nikon dslr. It's addictive! Easily, i took almost one hundred pictures! Of course, 99% of them were rubbish!

Here, i attach my favorite picture of the day.



This is a little "precious moments" figurine which i placed on my night table. Mich, do you remember the blue card on its background?

(-_-)***i believe i'll have more pictures in my blog pretty soon!

Ambiguity

Today i might tell you that i have decided on this but tomorrow, i might have set my mind on the total opposite. I recognise that nothing is absolute. I am the type that love to work single-mindedly once i am determined. To walk backwards and start over again is perceived to be a non-performer but the truth is, it's not the right train of thoughts. My inflexible and unaccomodating nature is probably the root of my grief at times. After acknowledging it, i can only continue to self-reflect on my judgements or actions and work from there onwards.

A few seconds ago, again i wonder what's my true aspiration. At the moment, i still have yet have a convincing answer. If only i have a magic ball. Here i contradict myself again, i have always believe that i am the only one who can and should paint my life the way i wanted. That's why i have never been able to persuade myself to go for a tarrot reading.

I have got another mail from Sandy! Receiving mail from her is always nice and uplifting. I think i am still very much a child. You know how it feels like to get something from your idol. That's exactly the feeling that i get whenever i get a mail from her. The best part is i am going to meet her in Ottawa soon. By doing so, i will probably end up having a mania over my love in surgery again. That sentence is as precise as it can be. Needless to repeat this over and over again, (without her), I could have strayed even further.

Mich, hope that you'll have a safe flight to Japan, the land that unexpectedly and successfully spellbounded me. I hope that you'll enjoy it as much as i did.





(-_-)***watashi wa nihon o aishiteru imasu

Sleep-out

It's slightly past 3 am now and i have already jumped out of my bed with eyes wide open. I probably slept too early after a kickboxing (exercise) session and i do have some muscle-aches now. I failed all my abs exercise in that session! It's time to get fit for summer.

Su, i don't know how you did it but handing in a resignation for a future that is to be seen is heroic! Just exactly like how you manage to work your way (after all the obstacles) in calgary. Me too hope and will pray for you to achieve your dream. You've outwitted procrastination to rock bottom girl.

Religion is something so abstract. I have a friend whom is seen by some (add me in the list as well), lucky all her life. As much as i realise that it's wrong to brand someone with that and belittle her ability and effort, i also wonder how she has been able to attain that. She seems to show us what "God" can really do. She cruised through med school with much less effort and obstacles but one thing she has more than the rest of us was her unrivalled faith. She just need to pray and she'll pass her exam! Ok, i did simplified that process. Couple days ago, again she demontrated that to us by getting matched to a residency program in the States through the scrambling process (aka second round) when all of us were pessimitic about her chances. I do wonder why but my interpretation would be - she has so much karma in her past life that she has so much credits to be used now! As much as i hope that she'll be learning from failure but she seems to be well protected in a miracle realm that is likely to continue. She's just lucky!

Time to jump back to my comfy bed!


(-_-)***action is louder than words

Wayward

I think i am feeling bored again (as evidence by the number of "new post" i had in this blog for the past few days). Not a whole lot but i dont usually write often due to hectic schedule. Like what i have mentioned before, unless it's something profoundly significant or when it's my emo day, i rarely blog. That means, i usually don't write when i am happy! Hence, you dont quite get to read about my better days in St.John's!

Life in st.john's is mostly work or surfing internet. However, i shall try to add more variety to my mundane life and that'll be photography!! I'll probably be getting a DSLR pretty soon to capture pictures the way i have always wanted - if i can ax

For the benefit of my physical build, i went for a kickboxing session today. Lily (a complicated-nationality background, chinese origin girl) was there and it's kinda fun to hang out with her and it's interesting how in certain days we can chat deeply into certain topics. However, for the past 2 weeks i do notice some change, well, isabel and sean have gone to ottawa! That makes the difference! Who are they? Ok, sean is just like me, someone who's undertaking his residency here while isabel is his wife. These people mentioned above are part of the small (very) chinese community here.

Actually last chinese new year was my first in st.john's, i had a cny party and prior to that, Isabel and i made some cny peanut cookies. I got that recipes from my cousin's blog and it did turn out pretty well and authentic! We also had a cny party with lots of food! Ok....i dont know how i reach to the point where i start talking about what i did even before cny! I'll go straight to my point, i am enjoying the fact that there's a bunch of chinese for me to mix around with here. Of course there are some people that i treasure a lot here and i do cherish the prospect of getting to know more about them. I also have to mention that there's a small group of undergraduate students here that unwittingly reminds me my own good ol' time!

I seriously don't really know what i aim to write in this post! I should just retire back to my books now!



(-_-)***D40x please hit the market soon!!

Cow and water

There's one chinese saying that sounds like "if a cow doesnt want to drink, no one will be able to force it". If one doesnt want get involve in something, ultimately one should be able to avoid it from the begining. Having said that, i am certainly aware that there's always exception in everything.

It could be as simple as being in a diet plan to reach weight target. One could blame on feast after feast that makes one defer it's planning but one definitely has a choice in refusing to indulge in those delicacies. However, things come in difficult when it involves emotion. Human is known to commit silly actions when they have to choose between what they like to do and what they actually should do. I do believe that the values instilled in us since young will make its presence felt when these situation arise. At least i still have faith that it will.

At the end of the day, we just have to remember that every action carries in itself its fruit and its consequences.




(-_-)***Life's fun when it's heading your way but it's bitter when it's not.

Another week

Soon, it's one week past in my first internal medicine rotation in my internship year. I kinda fear of it coming for sometime but i am much prepared for it now, after all, it's towards the end of internship! Can't give the shout of joy yet. There's still 3 more months of rough rotations to go before i can celebrate the completion of my first year. (-_-)***

Well, yesterday was the matching day meaning the day where people got their residency training spots like how i got mine a year ago. As usual, not everyone will get matched or matched to the specialty of their liking. This time around there's one msian chinese girl who got a spot in a 5-year residency program (anesthesia). Yay! At least i know i can see a permanent face around until year 2012 (the year when both of us should graduate).

Yesterday when i was on call, i had a patient who died in a mournful way. She being one of the sicker patients around, started vomiting blood in the midnight and passed away ~5min after that. The saddest and most unfortunate part was her son who was taking a short nap by her bedside witnessed it. Poor soul, he was traumatised. Rest in peace.

One other thing to share; Initially when i heard of an acquaintance getting an end-stage cancer, it didnt really hit me emotionally until i talked to his brother whom i refer as friend. Well, having seen and heard of similar stories "N" times, unless it happens to someone who has bonded with me in certain ways, i don't think I'll be in distraught. Hope that miracles will happen.



(-_-)***Treat everyday as the it's the last day and there'll be no (big) regret.

St.john's winter

I feel obliged to myself to blog a follow-up post to the one below. As you can see, these are pictures of what i had to shovel during that snow-storm week.

It's a 3ft (height) by 7ft (long) snow to clear!

The first house on the block is my house!

Well, the city does look prettier with snow!




(-_-)***hate to shovel but love the bed of fluffy white snow, how ironic***