Good surgeon

The title sums it all. Good and dedicated surgeon can be the single reason why residents or students find surgery extremely enjoyable. I dread to go in and operate with a surgeon who is busy making money but i had total fun and joy operating with those who are true surgeons (even though i am being grilled with questions). It all happened in one day. Thank goodness the later still exist.


(-_-)***will certainly be missing the kwan factor when he retires!

Countdown

In the midst of cleaning up my house, i suddenly went on thinking how my life will change over the coming few months. No matter what, my work will be able to keep me occupied. This is one of the main reasons why we should have a job that we love. How boring is my life when all i can think of is work. Maybe it is because :
work = money = necessities & luxury = survival + some form of happiness (???)
Does this equation make any sense? Do i actually need to work if i don't want necessities and luxury? I guess the answer would be "no" but i will not survive. So, i am back to ground zero.

I am still searching for something more meaningful that i should do in my life. What is my role as a member in this earth? Maybe, i should just focus on treating my patients or getting high scores in my exam or answering question like a genius or working like a mad horse. Maybe, i am already in a position that i have been searching for which is, "please, just concentrate to become a noble physician!!!". However, i really need some kind of enlightening experience elsewhere to allow me to learn appreciate more of what i am doing now or to know what i want to do with my life. Where can i find the answer? Who can provide me that form of guidance? Who can answer my questions? This is the million dollar question.

I am not more confused, it has been status quo for as long as i remember. Being in love with surgery only dealt with my perplexity temporarily. It is a relieve when i am distracted with something else but when i am left alone, that question arises again...


(-_-)*** i guess, i sound lost

It's a fine thread

Meeting new people will always give me new inspiration. I am someone who is easily influenced by others (as long as it is within my principles). After attending this short conference, surrounded by high achievers, i feel that there is so much more for me to do in order to be in the same rank as them. That is why it is not good to stay in St.John's for too long, i feel blunted. What is the right balance?

It is also interesting on how relationship can be the common topic among people all the time. The world is so small, my friend's friend (his medical school buddy who is a canadian) is the husband of my friend from malaysia. Aside from that. I have been asked today what type of guy i am interested in. Well, 3 of us who are still single, admitted to being picky in finding a partner, not wanting to succumb to someone that we don't think we can spend a lifetime with. They laughed at me when i told them i prefer asian to white because i don't want to spend my lifetime eating burgers and sandwiches (i know it sounds shallow but i wouldn't mind meeting a white guy who appreciate chinese food as much as i do!). I think i know what i am looking for but it is taking ages for him to show up! haha. I want a man who knows what he wants to do in life or at least have better clue than i do! Someone who is confident and carries himself well in public. Someone who can guide me and will grow and age with me. I think i need to find someone who can challenge me intellectually, otherwise, i will start to feel bored easily.....


(-_-)***my priorities need to be outlined....

Story of two angels

I do wonder if the topic of this blog is appropriate. Maybe i should change it to "story of two children".

They come from nowhere on one fine day. I was certainly curious on why they choose to come to st.john's for a short exchange program. I guess, without needing to draw it out blatantly (aka "drawing out the sausage"), they must have been mislead or ill-informed. They have interesting names, one is called three-angles and another one sounds like some kid. They come and settled in 169, uni ave's basement making it into a nest of their own.

Back in their homeland, they live a dormant life but they were bored to death in this small city that they have to resort to register for a sport facilities membership to keep their spirit alive. I am certainly unsure of the end results because their favourite sport was eating at tim hortons. No wonder, they ended up gaining weight rather than loosing it.

Coming from a country with millions of population squeezed in a square foot land, they must have felt a sense of freedom here. The biggest mall has so much space that all they can see is space and not things that they can buy. Don't get fooled when they tell you i like to buy stuff, there is hardly anything that is worth buying here! haha!

They mix with people who speaks various languages. These two silly girls will laugh contagiously (sadly, one goes to the extent of crying!) when they learn new words that they didn't know exist in their mother tongue! Although they have only been away for 3 months, they now speak their mother-tongue differently. That's what i called peer-influenced (aka jean-fluenced!). I think when they are home again, hongkongers will think that they are malaysians. How funny!

I once pledged to stay away from carbohydrates once i am back from my vacation but i think since i am back, there have been endless eating gatherings held at terra nova manor. I will need to starve when they leave.They can cook, well, they can cook well for kids coz their signature dish is super soft vege rice. I think they have improvement in their culinary skills as they can now cook pretty good oyster sauce potatoes and pork! They even prepared the same dish for events held at uni ave. One of the most memorable event is the surprise birthday party that probably wouldn't have been successful without their help. Aside from this, the appearance of another sze ling for one month didn't help my resolution. I probably ate more than any months that i have been here so far! I guess, they will cry that they have never eaten so much in their life before!

The mother nature must have liked their presence in this most eastern part of Canada as well. It snowed so badly in their 3 months stay that the weather is finally turning good when they are about to leave. I hope they enjoyed the experience of walking through the tunnel of snow they they created themselves. We still have yet make a snowman!

I don't think they arrive on the 15th of the lunar calendar but i saw a full moon upon their arrival! Have you seen a full moon? This one even has a full split in between (you must be able to relate if i ask you what J.Lo is famous for!) but i wish to see no more! (hehe!) Kiddo, you sure got your own way to attract attention. However, both these two girls have unmatched naivety causing lots of jokes and laughter. It feels like i am in a kid's world when hanging out with them.

Although, they were able to score stunning marks in their economic paper by drawing fingers and mountains, i hope they learned something in the past 3 months. Without their calling for babi and mama, life in st.john's will be back to tranquility and monotonousity. I will certainly miss these two babies.


(-_-)***time really flies although these 3 months actually felt longer....

Frustration is part of learning

Residency training can be fun and at the same time, suffocating. Residents learn to be a physician the hard way

Working with people who possess intelligence in the top 5 percentile of the population is one of the reason why it can be stressful. One will find it hard to relax because you can be caught off guarded by the very same people easily . One has to stay on their toes all the time and this can be extremely nerve-wrecking and exhausting.

Everyday, going into the operating room, only to come out from it feeling like you are not yet a skilled surgeon is not a good feeling (well, i know i am only in my second year training and obviously i won't be good at what i am doing now but oh my, that feeling is really painful. It feels as if you are so low, next to nothing). I can't wait to acquire those skills which will come with experience.

I hope tomorrow will be a better day.



(-_-)***winning millions will solve my problem.......otherwise, working even harder is the only solution!

A little surprise

Hope that this little gift will provide you some cheers

She never realised that she can be deeply affected by problem of others as if it's hers

Her heart is aching and crying as well as she listens to her woes and worries

She doesn't know what she should do aside from providing her ears and listen

No matter what happens, she will always be there



(-_-)***........"listening".......

A cellphone lifespan

I think people have always wonder how long can a cellphone last. My ex-sony ericsson's (i just dumped it a day ago!), only lasted 1 year, 8 months and 3 days. It doesn't sound an impressive record, right?

I do realise that i use the phone a lot, but only 20 months old is a pretty short life for a cellphone. My phone died while i was on the phone, chatting....Now it's resting in peace. The good news is i got myself a new PDA cellphone...HTC Touch! It's a cool replacement! Well, if old things don't spoil, i won't get new replacement right?? hehe =D



(-_-)***does talking a lot (exercising mouth muscle) reduce the risk of getting double chin?

Who is mich voon?

Well, well....just feel like blogging down what i have been thinking about her (i hope i am not repeating these because i am not sure if i told her before!).

I still remember when i was in high school, after watching all those movies and reading books about good friends. I was searching high and low for one even as i was going into pre-university schooling (even joining mcfan club looking for one by writing snail mails). I am not sure how it happened that in one fine day, i suddenly realised that the person i have been looking for has been by my side for years. Today, she has been such a close friend to me that i think i talk about her so often to an extent that everybody who knows me well, will learn about her existence.

So, what so special about her? I don't know! It's just the chemistry i guess. I also meant to say I don't even know where to start. Well, what i think of her could be different of how others interpret her but these are what i saw in her.

She is one of the most beautiful person that i know. She is tall, slim, pretty, jovial, and ...... (hm...wanted to add stylish but this is an intermittent thing!)...does that ring the bell that she is a good girlfriend candidate? Well, she does own a beautiful smile and unquestionably big eyes too!

As her friend, she is someone that i can really confide in. Be it happy, sad or silly things. So many sleepless nights (ok, i have to confess that i did fall asleep accidentally sometimes during the all night long conversation, not that she didn't realise!) and unproductive days talking on the phone with her, only to end up not knowing or remembering what was shared! It is something i certainly enjoy in our friendship. I trust her in just about anything. It always feel so comfortable talking to her and relaxed after conversation ended.

She is a seasonal workaholic. Someone who can be immersed in her work when she is up to it but can also be dead lazy if she is in no mood to work. Well, you can just envy her job(and also her nice boss) for her to be able to do so.

She is also someone who can be so thankful for things she has in life. I'd say, she worked hard for that. She called it luck more than anything. I am convinced that luck only come to people who worked for it.

Let's talk about intelligence as a pretty girl without brain is called bimbo. She is no where near that! She is someone who can go on talking about the silliest thing in the world and yet sometimes she tell me things that actually enriched my thoughts or kind of stimulated my thinking.

What other skills that she possesses!!??

How can i forget that she can eat!!! Well, she knows how to eat!! We are food lover that will enjoy any food that we share. Eating out with her is fun because i know the choice will be unlimited. How can i forget that she can shop too and yet she tried to be modest in her expenditure , be it cosmetic, clothes, magazine, the list goes on....She is my personal consultant in these although i might not follow her advice well.

Related to her hobbies and interest, i really think that she can sing too. If there's a mvoon fan club, i guess i would have been the founder! hehe...how lame!

There are so much more to describe her but most importantly, she is like a friend from heaven that has somehow become a part of me, unknowingly.


(-_-)***a bowl and a cup are essential you know!??

First question

I was thinking of asking that question until it was actually being pointed to me first. Interesting. Yes, i am a malaysian. Well, i was once a malaysian, until i was 16 years old.


(-_-)***your citizenship is a common topic